Sitting on a boardwalk bench, sunny and clear
Looking at the looming horizon
Ocean as cold as a summer’s day is hot
Bundled up fighting whirling winds
Am I looking out or inward?
Still looking for me or
am I looking for him?
The flowing haired redhead
Suddenly, sitting next to me, he is here
We talk about mundane, mind matters
“How was your day, Sonny Boy?”
“Okay Dad,” in his offhand way
We are dancing around emotional substance
Maybe we hesitate to engage in foreign country
Maybe that was OUR mistake
waiting for the other’s reveal first
Each one not demanding of the other
Both wanting to expel emotions
So, I say, “why do we both remain mum about the
important feelings in our castle’s keep?”
“I don’t know Dad,” his hurting eyes express
I am here for you always, I thought without saying
“It’s alright, Dad. I know you love me.”
I turned teary-eyed towards him for a long lasting hug
He is not there- only in my reverie
What I would not give for that hug
Peace Out
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Hugs from Ryan’s Mom
My heart aches for you Mr. Insler; I wholeheartedly feel every word you write. I know the dance you spoke of all too well. I know it from both sides of the conversation. Your post inspired me and helped keep me sober today. Thank you.
My mission on Earth is to “Heal the World.” It is a saying from Judaism and I have found a way to try. Thank you for understanding and if I can be of any help, please reach out. Peace and love to you<3